A little depressed
I woke up a little depressed this morning.
I paid my rent. Two more whole months to go before returning home. Something is wrong with my water bill at home… it is twice as much as it should be, which means I have a problem somewhere. Other nagging problems that need to be taken care of, but I can’t handle them for two more months!
Tonight is the Bible study at sister Aide’s house. She is Nicaraguan and talks so fast that I can’t understand very much of what she says. And the ladies in the Bible class are country, and I can barely understand what they say. Oh, and of course, the preacher speaks Spanish too, and when he is teaching, he talks very fast, and sometimes I totally lose track.
And I wonder if I am doing any good, struggling so much with the language. I smile and nod my head a lot when I don’t understand. I smile some more when they say to each other that I didn’t understand, because I DO understand the words for “she doesn’t understand”!
But tonight at the Bible study, Aida said, in Spanish, that she didn’t want me to go back to the US because she would miss me.
So I am feeling a little depressed, because I only have two more months here.
Thanks for listening. I feel better now :)
J. Randal Matheny 6:36 am on June 11, 2011 Permalink |
Thanks for sharing, Barbara. There are a lot of rigors and stresses of living in a foreign country and learning a language. We lose track of the progress we’ve made when that progress puts us just under a major threshold of new comprehension. Remember: in two month we can do a lot. Now, you didn’t need to hear all that, just an ear, right?
Barbara Ann Oliver 8:21 am on June 11, 2011 Permalink |
Actually, I did need to hear that, especially from an expert! Sometimes, in the heat of the battle, you are too stressed to notice that you are getting better with your sword :)
J. Randal Matheny 10:32 am on June 11, 2011 Permalink |
If you hadn’t progressed this far, you wouldn’t feel these frustrations.
Weylan Deaver 10:39 am on June 11, 2011 Permalink |
God bless you both for venturing beyond your homeland for the gospel’s sake.
John Henson 2:49 pm on June 11, 2011 Permalink |
Amen.
J. Randal Matheny 6:44 pm on June 11, 2011 Permalink
Thanks to you both. A case of merely doing what we’re called to do as his unworthy servants.
joyshomeschool 11:47 pm on June 11, 2011 Permalink |
Barbara, oh how I can empathize with you! It does get quite stressful when you cannot freely express your thoughts, especially to Christian sisters, and as a result, the loneliness can really get to you sometimes. I could understand Swahili a lot more if they would slow down and enunciate, instead of mumble and speak so quickly that one cannot keep up. Sometimes even their fellow Tanzanians cannot keep up, so I guess I ought not feel to badly. :) Isn’t it amazing how we feel both anxious to go and desirous to stay at the same time? … Is there anyone that can check on your water situation for you at home? I know we don’t like to ask people…but I would imagine that someone would be happy to help. :) Have a wonderful Lord’s Day.
Barbara Ann Oliver 3:38 pm on June 12, 2011 Permalink |
Yes, thanks to Skype, I was able to call the plumber, who will check on it on Monday! I love this modern age!! After the morning worship, after one of the brothers in the congregation had preached, I told the regular preacher that I always had a hard time understanding this particular brother. The preacher laughed and said, “Well, I have a hard time understanding him sometimes, and I am Costa Rican!!”
J. Randal Matheny 6:57 pm on June 12, 2011 Permalink |
We had a lady here in the church who talked so fast and slurred that the Brazilians confessed to having a hard time understanding her.
Barbara Ann Oliver 10:12 am on June 13, 2011 Permalink |
There is an American woman here, from Texas. She talks so fast in English that I have to ask her to repeat herself!